Wow, what a week!!

So, i ended up back in the hospital with a 104 temp, ouch!! I shit myself, i couldn't walk, i did not eat, it was horrible!! Yeah tell me again this is "the easy way "!!! I am very glad i feel better! That's an understatement!! I am very weak still. If i take the dogs out i have to rest before i can say go to the bathroom. Its weird!, Very weird.

I stayed in the hospital a week this time. ugh! Then of course i feel bad because a week is nothing!!! The last days of my mother's life she was in the hospital for 5 weeks. This has been extremely emotional for me and all I want is my mom. God I miss her. I've never been through anything like this without her. The last couple years of her life i took care of her and yes i complained because it was tough, now I'm on the other side while i watch my dear sister drop everything for me. I'm not use to somebody taking care of me!!!

Well on a lighter note I've lost some weight!! Started this journey on the pre-op diet at 380, went to the doc today weighed in at 334!!! yeah its crazy and mainly due to the hospital stay and that i was sick, very sick!! I'm not exactly proud of that per say but I'm just ready to be healthy!! That's my main thing!!! I just wanna live and breathe!! This is gonna be a long post because I'm also for my benefit gonna list some milestones, there's quite a few!!

Ok so in no particular order:

- being able to easily tie my shoes/or put shoes on that are not clogs

-not having to worry about fitting in the booth in a restaurant

-also not worrying about moving around places or having to map out in my head a route where i can fit around people

-being able to physically walk my dogs/they deserve that

-not always sitting in the front seat with friends because i may not fit in the backseat

-not having my friends to worry about my struggles

_movie theatre seats!!!! nuf said

-i want to have the energy again to plant flowers and climb a step ladder without the fear of collapsing

-being able to do the things to my house myself without the help of a man!!!

_there's so many more that i will add later!!!

coye