Wow, what a week!!

So, i ended up back in the hospital with a 104 temp, ouch!! I shit myself, i couldn't walk, i did not eat, it was horrible!! Yeah tell me again this is "the easy way "!!! I am very glad i feel better! That's an understatement!! I am very weak still. If i take the dogs out i have to rest before i can say go to the bathroom. Its weird!, Very weird.

I stayed in the hospital a week this time. ugh! Then of course i feel bad because a week is nothing!!! The last days of my mother's life she was in the hospital for 5 weeks. This has been extremely emotional for me and all I want is my mom. God I miss her. I've never been through anything like this without her. The last couple years of her life i took care of her and yes i complained because it was tough, now I'm on the other side while i watch my dear sister drop everything for me. I'm not use to somebody taking care of me!!!

Well on a lighter note I've lost some weight!! Started this journey on the pre-op diet at 380, went to the doc today weighed in at 334!!! yeah its crazy and mainly due to the hospital stay and that i was sick, very sick!! I'm not exactly proud of that per say but I'm just ready to be healthy!! That's my main thing!!! I just wanna live and breathe!! This is gonna be a long post because I'm also for my benefit gonna list some milestones, there's quite a few!!

Ok so in no particular order:

- being able to easily tie my shoes/or put shoes on that are not clogs

-not having to worry about fitting in the booth in a restaurant

-also not worrying about moving around places or having to map out in my head a route where i can fit around people

-being able to physically walk my dogs/they deserve that

-not always sitting in the front seat with friends because i may not fit in the backseat

-not having my friends to worry about my struggles

_movie theatre seats!!!! nuf said

-i want to have the energy again to plant flowers and climb a step ladder without the fear of collapsing

-being able to do the things to my house myself without the help of a man!!!

_there's so many more that i will add later!!!

coye

Feeling much better now! Still in pain but not near as bad. I had no idea the amount of pain i was gonna have! I'm sure that was a good thing.
I'm at my sister's house now. Kinda bored:( I'm really not used to just sitting around. I also miss working, yea I do!!

Having trouble getting all of my fluids and protein shakes in. Its really weird feeling. I also do not like the way ANYTHING taste!! Just water. I did have a dream last night that i was in a candy store, in the section of chocolate, the place was chocolate from floor to ceiling!! Te-he

So we're gonna take a little trip to Earthfare today to get some "goodies" for me, as i will be driving the motorized wheelchair!! I think we may even catch a matinee!!

Picking up my babies tomorrow from the pet lodge!!!!

Ok, well still in the hospital. Been a rough past couple days. Today has been much better. The pain medicine they were giving me was making me pretty much nonresponsive. So i had some fever, fluid in my chest, and i was still in a ton of pain.

“For I know the plans I have for you, plans to prosper you and not to harm you,

Twas the night before surgery, chicken broth, veggie broth, and ice Gatorade galore!!! Magnesium Citrate is a really dirty whore!!!

Sorry, i had to do that!!! Wow, well its gonna happen. My parents would be proud of me. They would really be proud of my sister for taking care of me!!

This is just a new journey that i'm starting to live a better life, it may not be easier, but at least i'll be healthier and live longer!!

HOLY SHITAKE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ok its umm Tuesday night and my surgery is next Monday!!! DUDE!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Wow!!! I'm soo freaking pumped!!! I think I could live on pickles!! That was random! oh well I'm just excited!

Howdy! One week tomorrow i will drastically change my life and intestines!!! Had a weird last fat Halloween. Decided to use my fatness...