Wednesday, October 21, 2009
Tuesday, October 13, 2009
OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I HAVE A SURGERY DATE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! NOVEMBER 9th!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! He-he!
I'm too flipping exited to just sit here and write stuff.
I'm too flipping exited to just sit here and write stuff.
Monday, October 5, 2009
Introduction
So I've wanted to do this for quite some time now. I plan on just using this blog as a way for me to express myself and for others to understand a side of me that is usually hidden.
People who have known me for quite a while know that i have been fat for most of my childhood and all of my adult life. It's just who I am. It's a part of me, my personality. I never really understood when i was younger why i was fat. Of course i got picked on but not by most people I knew. Usually just random people being quick to judge me. Its funny because that hasn't changed at all. It has been a terrible struggle.
I have been on numerous diets and everything you can imagine!! I've lost hundreds and gained hundreds. I researched years ago gastric bypass surgery. I went to my first seminar back in 2004 before my heaviest now. Things just didn't go smoothly. Insurance denials and I just didn't think I was ready to take that step. After events that have taken place in the past few years, I turned to food for comfort.
Last November i went to another seminar. I followed through this time having all the pre-op studies, which must I say are like going through HELL!! I had a sleep study,a lung function test, a echo cardiogram, EKG, ultrasound of the veins in my legs, a psychological exam, and blood work galore. I also changed surgeons in the process. The new surgeon has a weight management center with Behavioral Counselors, Exercise Counselors, Nutritionists...everything. I've taken required nutrition classes and they even test you! When i took my test there was a man that had failed from the previous testing. So i believe i chose the right surgeon and center. I thought i knew everything about this process but I'm still learning.
I honestly know in my heart without a doubt that this will save my life. I know the risks of this procedure, and the risk of continuing at the weight i am. I want to live . Its a TOOL that will help me . That's my choice. I want to see blue water, get on a plane again, wear cute shoes, not give out of breath, i want to feel wind on my face from running, i wanna do my job without being in so much pain, i want to touch my toes, i want to sit in a plastic lawn chair without the fear of it collapsing, i don't want to take high blood pressure meds, or beta-blockers, or fluid pills, ok i know i just went on an emotional rant but that's just a few .
Well I see the surgeon Friday. I will walk out of his office with a date! Yay!
Coye
People who have known me for quite a while know that i have been fat for most of my childhood and all of my adult life. It's just who I am. It's a part of me, my personality. I never really understood when i was younger why i was fat. Of course i got picked on but not by most people I knew. Usually just random people being quick to judge me. Its funny because that hasn't changed at all. It has been a terrible struggle.
I have been on numerous diets and everything you can imagine!! I've lost hundreds and gained hundreds. I researched years ago gastric bypass surgery. I went to my first seminar back in 2004 before my heaviest now. Things just didn't go smoothly. Insurance denials and I just didn't think I was ready to take that step. After events that have taken place in the past few years, I turned to food for comfort.
Last November i went to another seminar. I followed through this time having all the pre-op studies, which must I say are like going through HELL!! I had a sleep study,a lung function test, a echo cardiogram, EKG, ultrasound of the veins in my legs, a psychological exam, and blood work galore. I also changed surgeons in the process. The new surgeon has a weight management center with Behavioral Counselors, Exercise Counselors, Nutritionists...everything. I've taken required nutrition classes and they even test you! When i took my test there was a man that had failed from the previous testing. So i believe i chose the right surgeon and center. I thought i knew everything about this process but I'm still learning.
I honestly know in my heart without a doubt that this will save my life. I know the risks of this procedure, and the risk of continuing at the weight i am. I want to live . Its a TOOL that will help me . That's my choice. I want to see blue water, get on a plane again, wear cute shoes, not give out of breath, i want to feel wind on my face from running, i wanna do my job without being in so much pain, i want to touch my toes, i want to sit in a plastic lawn chair without the fear of it collapsing, i don't want to take high blood pressure meds, or beta-blockers, or fluid pills, ok i know i just went on an emotional rant but that's just a few .
Well I see the surgeon Friday. I will walk out of his office with a date! Yay!
Coye
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